Saturday, October 17, 2015

I made it from scratch......

Hello Everyone,
  As usual I was inspired by a dress I saw on Pinterest, and thought to myself.  I can do that.  Wellll, I kind of did.  I wanted a colorful dress with an African print (Ankara Fabric)but what I envisioned and what came about are two different stories.  Have you heard this before?
Don't get me wrong. I love my dress, I love all my waders.  They are like dysfunctional children, they might be loud, rambunctious, rude and sometimes inappropriate but their yours.  So damn it, I claim it, I love it and I am going to have to keep it.  Quiet frankly, no one else want's

So here she is in all her glory....

This is my attempt in creating ruffles.  Can you see it?

Anyway, that's it for now.  I have sewn quiet a few things so expect some more interesting experiments. 
Hope all is well,

Thursday, October 15, 2015

Human Moments: Hidden Anger

Today was a very emotional day for me.  I am not sure if this only happens to me but there are times when something seemingly insignificant happens, turns into a chaotic, crazed, wrathful experience. 

I was in the middle lane of the highway and decided to change lanes to the furthest left.  Mind you I checked ensure there was enough room and signaled before merging into the left lane.  Then I changed lanes.  Now this is important right here because there is a belief you did something right followed protocol /procedure that you will get the right results.  But, no the person who was a good distance away decided to speed up change lanes and cut right in front of me.  I am not sure if the person was claiming position/territory, but I usually don’t let things of this nature get to me.  I do live in New York after all.

Something snapped, broke. (The nature of expectation.) I don’t know if I was holding too much in (being always cautious and careful).  Me always being rational, reasonable and usually just calm.  Me the stable, focus, emotionally intact human being lose it?  I lost it over something trivial, insignificant, an everyday occurrence.  What happened?  Who was I?  All I know I got dark fast, something took over my mind, spirit, body…I was so just done.  I tried to talking myself, but the more I talked the angrier I got.  At some point I started to pray but prayer turned into a rageful rant.  I was so frustrated angry, upset but most dangerously important I was vengeful.

I wanted to get her back in the worst way.  I mean car crashed into a wall of flames burnt body parts spewed all over the concrete ground. The darkness wouldn’t move it persist, it stayed and I knew I had to turn to God.   Something was eating me up and it wasn’t this.  I wanted to allow myself this small victory and even when I passed her for a brief moment. I refused to engage in battle, I wasn’t going to allow this to turn me into something I knew I wasn’t.  Because I realized it wasn’t about her.

My rage is coming from a place allot deeper.  The road represented my journey, my eagerness to get to my destination.( I knew this because in the midst of my rant I kept thinking about all the times I have been neglected, used, abused and not taken into consideration.)  Although I wasn’t being cut off from it but delayed and in my hurry I couldn’t afford the distraction, I couldn’t afford the hesitation.  

I didn’t want it to be in the obstacle but that’s life and I was tired, tired and fed up with being good, patient, and kind.  Fed up with being overlooked tired of feeling insignificant and insecure.  I cried and I raged, cried and raged some more. 

After I regained my composure.  I knew what would have been considered a breakdown was a breakthrough. Instead of allowing the situation to be an embarrassing incident, I knew it was an opportunity to let it all out.  My frustration, fear, anxiety, disappointment come through to the surface.  I had to let the tears fall because I need that cleansing.

Tuesday, October 13, 2015

How I wore B4790

Wow!  It's been three years since I made this dress and I finally got the courage to wear it.  Honestly, I didn't know how I was going to wear it until I purchased my red sweater.  I originally had the McCall's dress in mind when I bought the sweater but found that it can also be used for the Butterick dress.

Everyone at work complimented the look...I have to admit I kind of liked it myself.  My only regret is that I couldn't really show the back portion of the dress. It's actually the main focus but, oh well.
More to come.

Monday, October 12, 2015

McCall's 6696

Hello Everybody,
  I just wanted to stop by and say hello.  Plus I am overdue for a post.  I finished two versions of McCall's 6696 but wasn't able to post any pics because I wasn't satisfied with the results.  But, I can't wait on perfect conditions, hairstyles, make-up and etcetera, so here it is....

I can't tell you how much I love this pattern. The style, cut and variety is just amazing and it fits me perfectly.  I had to make minor adjustments here and there but nothing dramatic.  The only thing I would change is the placements of the darts, but even when I tried to alter my bust darts according to my sloper it still landed in a strange place. 
Well that's it for now....I still have a great deal of things to work on and others I have to post soon.  Since I am still learning how to use my new computer it might take me awhile, but expect some more post on my new and old but never shown garments. 
Hope all is well,